Hard on a mama's heart.

Today was hard.  Like, the hardest one yet.

I drop my kiddos off at school between 7-7:15 every morning at extended day.  Just one of those things a working mama's gotta do.  I start school a half hour later than my kids, but need to be at my school for morning duty/meeting stuff.  Anywho, it  normally takes a little bit of coaxing to get Lola into the arms/care of one of the extended day workers, but today was easy breezy, and she went right in!  The one who I don't ever worry about was the one in tears.

Kyan has been a little ehhhh going into extended day in the morning {only the mornings, he always tells me I pick him up too early after school, which isn't early btw}.  There has been another kid who has kinda been teasing him a little {he is older}.  When I talked to the extended day workers, they knew exactly who I was talking about and promised to nip it right away, and they did.  So what was he so upset about?!  Like upset like, trying not to cry but boogers dripping out of his nose kind of upset.  I took him to the bathroom, he got himself together and then we talked before we went in.  One of the extended day workers always calls Kyan "doughnut boy", like for the past year!  It is a term of endearment and Kyan always giggles when he hears it!  In fact, after 7 days of being at extended day, Lola has earned the name "doughnut girl" by him as well!  They always bring in white powder doughnuts for breakfast {mom of the year award, I know...it is easy and convenient}.  Today, it must have bothered him.  Other kids were starting to call him that too {Mr. Extended Day is cool and they hear him and want to be like him}!  That is what ended up bothering Kyan, I found this out all during our talk.

***I feel like I have to say this.  Mr. Extended Day is so good to Kyan.  They have a secret handshake and he always plays with him in the morning and afternoons.  Kyan adores him and the other Mr. Extended Day!

We went back in from the restroom and I talked with Mr. Extended Day, who felt horrible and said he'd talk to him.  I told him that Kyan might not talk, but he said he would still try.  When I was walking out, I watched him sit next to Kyan and put his arm around him.  I watched Kyan resist for a red hot second, and then lean on him and just start crying.  It was like he released the weight of the world that was carrying on his shoulders.  I wanted to run in and hug him and tell him that everything was going to be okay, but I knew that he was in good hands.  It broke my heart to leave him that way, but I knew I had to leave.  I got in my car and cried.
Before school started, I called extended day and asked if he got better before he went to class.  Ms. Extended Day told me that she talked to him about when she got teased when she was little and how it made her feel and she thought he felt better.  Which made me feel better.

I wasn't myself all day and felt like I was on auto pilot.  Around 2:50 {when Kyan and Lola get out of school} I got an email from Ms. Extended Day that basically stated that Kyan came in, put his head down, and wouldn't talk.  He would go with his sister's group either.  Nothing from him and that she was very concerned.  I called as soon as I got it.  He refused to talk to me. 
Heart aching.

As soon as school was over I went to get him.  Ms. Extended Day told me he was feeling better.  She said that him and Mr. Extended Day talked again about the doughnut boy situation and worked it all out.  When Kyan walked out, he was smiling.  

Thank God.  

We talked about everything in the car and about how he can't just NOT talk to people.  

Hoping tomorrow will be better.  No mama should have to watch her baby cry before, during, or after school.

I am so thankful to the extended care workers for their sweetness with my kids, especially this week.  Lola with her adjusting to life in school and with this situation with Kyan.  They take care of them when I can not.  

PS-I got a call from the nurse this morning {it is Thursday now}, Kyan has been complaining of having a belly ache pretty much all week {I didn't blog about that part, he has been in and out of that office all week, no fever, no puking or pooping, so I had him sent back to class}, but I just thought he was avoiding school or something.  Well, he had a fever this morning, so I needed to go get him.  We went straight to the doctor's office, where he tested positive for strep.  Strep is not a stranger to Kyan, but he has NEVER shown the symptoms that he has currently for it, ever, so I had no clue.  I can usually tell the second he gets it, like I said, he does get it a lot, so when they said strep, I was shocked!  I am hoping that this is why he has truly been off this week.  Time will tell.