Ok, so the first thing that I want to say about this movie is DO NOT WEAR EYE MAKEUP!!! I cried from the second the little sister Anna started speaking at the very beginning of the movie to the very end of the movie. Even in parts that make you laugh, you are still crying.
I am not a fan of movies made from books, HOWEVER, this movie did justice to the book and you could feel the emotions that you felt from the book in the movie. Sure, did they leave stuff out - absolutely. Were things different, yes. Didn't matter to me, I thought it was a great show. Could have been so good also, because it hits so close to home.
I thought about Brion the entire time and the different stages of cancer that he went through. I cried a lot because I am sure that most of the stuff that Kate went through, Brion went through too, except Brion did it alone. Then I felt more sad, because no one was there for him, not that we wouldn't have been, but because he wanted it that way. When I looked at Kate, I saw Brion. I think that Brion never wanted us to see him like that and only allowed us to at the end because he had no other choice. Then I felt bad because I wish I would have said so many things to him before he died and am mad at myself that I couldn't muster up the courage to tell him how incredible I thought he was. Not sure this is the right thing to blog about, but, I kick myself for being a coward for not saying it to him, so thought everyone should hear how wonderful he really was...this is what I would have said.
Brion,
I love you. You were one of the most incredible men that I have been blessed to have in my life. You treated me always like the daughter you never had and I will always remember that you said you finally got your daughter the day I married your son. You treated me like your own child and loved me unconditionally. You were an amazing father and grandfather to Chad, myself, Kyan, and Lola. No one was more proud than you. I was so happy that you fought hard enough to see your baby granddaughter born - she truly was the daughter you never had. I wanted to have a girl for you, not just for me! When they told us, "It's a girl!" in the delivery room, it was you that I thought of immediately and couldn't wait for you to hear!
I was so happy that Kyan was able to stay with you at the end and help take care of his Grandpa B. Some people might say that it wasn't right to have Kyan there seeing you slowly slipping out of this world and into a much better life, but I disagree. I think he was there for you and for Chad and brought comfort to you both. You will live on through him. He talks so sweetly about you, his Grandpa B. We explained everything to him and he knows you watch over us from heaven. We know that you hear us in heaven every time we sing your song ("What I've Done", Lincoln Park) on Rock Band!
I am sorry that you had to be in so much pain at the end of your life. Seeing you slowly slip away was the hardest thing I have ever had to watch in my life. I hate cancer and what it did to you. I pray that one day they will find a cure and that others will not have to suffer like you did.
With that all being said, I do know you are in a better place, I knew it the moment that I saw that you had passed - with the biggest, most comforting smile on your face. Seeing you like that made me feel secure in knowing you are in a better place, but that you are still with us everyday, still taking care of us in your own little way. Thank you for being who you were and having a part in making us who were are today. I am sorry that I didn't say these things before you passed, but I hope you hear me now. I love you.
Jenni
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I have tears streaming down my face right now- that was beautiful, and it's never too late to write or to say that.
Now, I will officially NOT got see that movie- but thank you anyway. I did enough crying today. : )
Awww. That made me tear up. Even though you did not get to tell him this i'm sure he still appreciated any and everything you did for him! So you got brave enough to go see the movie....It was great huh?! One of the best I've seen in a while! I truly felt bad for you the day all the teachers told us that Brion had passed away. Most people knew by now that he had cancer and was fighting with all he could to survive it! I bet you made a super daughter-in-law! One day you'll get to see him again and maybe share those words with him! <333
hey roseland :D
omg, i really want to see that movie. im glad to hear it was good. im a wimp so i will not wear ANY eyeliner
Jenni, that was beautiful.
I know Brion loved you as his daughter. His face lit up when he spoke of you the same way his face lit up when he spoke of Chad.
I really miss him and I will always remember the way he was before Cancer took him. He was a wonderful man and I was so lucky to have him as my Godfather.
I really thought the movie did the book justice. I cried most of the time. Thankfully Cameron Diaz didn't ruin it and make me want to drop kick her. :)
DAMN Jenni, I did enough crying yesterday!!
You really are so good with your words. You couldn't have said it better. There is no doubt in my mind that Brion heard you. It is always hard to tell people how you truly feel-I feel it is best done in writing.
Thanks for the movie afternoon. We will have to do that again sometime, but maybe one we can wear make-up to!
It was a good movie. Very sad, but good. It made me think of all my loved ones who have passed and those that are still here. I think I cried through most of the movie.
i agree..im balling and i think i will all day...i sooooooooooo know hw u feel..i wish i said so many things to my granny b4 she went....it was still sudden to me even tho she'd been fighting the cancer for so long....i did the same i wrote her a letter and buried it with her and no one read it but me....and i told her wht she ment to me and hw i ws so thankful she made it to c ree and hold her even tho she ws weak...the letter u wrote ws beautiful and like sue said he heard it....and agree tht it ws amazing kyan got to b there..if ree were older i would of dun the same....my one dream is she will have the grace, love, and strength of my granny....i wnta c this movie so bad ...i will make b go with me...lol...i am so glad u guys got some mommy time!!...lv u xo
it's amazing how much a movie can hit home. and how much emotion it can bring out of someone. your reaction to this movie is what The Notebook does for me, though i still can't talk about it like you did here. who knows, maybe i should.
on another note, i gave in to reading this book because the movie looked so good. i went to barnes and noble looking for this book and when i saw who the author was i passed it up (sorry, i think the other two of hers i tried were just so boring). but a few weeks later i gave in and am about 3/4 of the way through and think it's a fantastic story. i've been crying since the beginning and can't wait to finish it!
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